I’m back! Has it really been 8 months? A lot has been going on and I needed a little hiatus…okay, a long hiatus. I just haven’t felt like sitting at a computer at all in my spare time. Obviously I’m coming out of my funk. Why you ask?
I finally gained the courage to ask for a referral for weightloss surgery. I have tried every diet known to man, and have come to the realisation that something drastic has to happen. I know I can lose weight, but I need to lose it like yesterday! Over the past couple of years, I have lost 17kg and kept it off. That makes me super happy, however I have a long way to go. Unfortunately my blood glucose levels have been progressively getting worse. I’m sure I’ll be going onto insulin soon (I have my endocrinologist appointment in a couple of weeks) and I feel like crap. By having weightloss surgery, I will be able to improve my diabetes status and hopefully go into remission. This isn’t a decision I’ve taken lightly. I have been researching this for the past two years.
I met with a surgeon on Monday and he says I’m the perfect candidate. I felt so comfortable with him and I know I’m making the right decision. A feeling of inner peace has washed over me and I’m totally excited for the future.
Where to from here?
There’s some paper work that needs to be sorted before I see the surgeon again. All going well, I’ll start the pre-operation procedures in the next couple of months and then have surgery. I will be documenting the whole process, so if this is something you’ve considered yourself, you’ll know what’s involved.
In the meantime, I am going back to the gym. I have been paying for my membership without using it for the past 18 months. I’ve been asked a few times why haven’t I just cancelled it? Reality is, I know if I cancelled it, I would never go back. Stupid I know. I would rather waste the money, than cut off the possibility of return. I’ve set myself a goal of four times a week starting tomorrow night with a Body Combat class. I really love the exercise…it’s the getting there that’s the hardest part (damn you depression!). I figure by the time I go in for surgery, I’ll have the exercise routine down.
I know that surgery isn’t a miracle cure; it’s a tool…along with food, lifestyle and exercise.
I have joined a number of support groups online and I’m learning a lot from people who are experiencing the same journey I am. I have so many questions, and thankfully people have been generous sharing their knowledge and experience with me.
I feel good.
Yes I am aware of the risks, and I know this is not the easy way out.
This is just something I need to do. To live. I feel like I’m getting a second chance at life.
How good is that!
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